Import // This wasn’t the clean slate I was looking for.

due to Xanga experiencing some changes, I have imported my previous Xanga blog over here. thus, all posts from December 2010 to March 2013 are from jchearts.xanga.com.

I feel sad for not being able to continue over there but nothing is permanent, really. I’ve decided to import them here because the posts are precious to me and that point of time, it was something that got me through the ‘dark’ days (as I like to call it).

Not the clean slate I was looking for but oh well. This is the Internet, I can have as many clean slates as I want.

replay.

i consider myself a very patient person. but being in a place where i just don’t fit in, not entirely is making me annoyed and greatly agitated. maybe i’m too used to the silence at home, to Umma too tired from her work to bother me, to me having my own room and my own time. now, there are people i can’t upset, people i have to listen to and abide by their rules and people who are just too young to understand consideration or tolerance or something along those lines. and i can’t help but wonder why am i here?Money would be one of them. at least some to fund for my Super Junior/Kpop craze. and to experience being on my own? well, i don’t like being on my own, not this kind.

err, yea. rant. must be PMS-ing.

goodnight.

p.s i’ve grown heavier. ): and i miss home.

beautiful.

Something about living in a house that has a father, two actually unnerves me.

makes me sad. makes me wonder.

to compare is inevitable. however, to hope is an action too late to do.

well, other than that, i’ve got a job and a date with Super Junior on March 20th.

life is as beautiful as it could get.

声をきかせて

to be sad on Christmas day is sad.

i miss the KPOP world.

goodnight.